Hola!
This week has been so crazy, I feel like I've ridden the emotional roller coaster 4 times. First off, exciting news! Today we have a meeting with the Spanish Consul.... What ever that means? Ha, but all of our friends in the MTC that are heading to Spain have been invited (even some of the missionaries that just got here last week, super jealous) so we'll at least be hearing SOMEthing about our visas, whose to say when they'll come but we have high hopes! We only have one full week left, the Elders in our District leave one week from next Monday for Nicarauga, so we're pretty excited for that. Anyways, so if we don't get visas next week then I'm pretty sure they just go off and re-assign us to wherever we need to be! I'll be writing letters after our meeting so if I find out any good news, you'll know soon.
Okay, this week I just gotta say how grateful I am for the Atonement, it's real, I use it everyday as a missionary. Um.. Where do I begin? I just feel like I have had so many highs and lows, I found this scripture in Ether 6 this morning that can help me put the way I feel into words.. these are parts of verse 6 and 7 talking about when the brother of Jared and his people had to travel across the sea in their barges, anyways, "And it came to pass that they were many times buried in the depths of the sea.." " and therefore they were encompassed about by many waters they did cry unto the Lord, and he did bring them forth again upon the TOP OF THE WATERS." Whatever it may be, each day this week I feel like I've been "buried" in my lack of faith or in my hardened heart, but I can say that every time this happens, the Lord lifts me back up. He knows my threshold, and he doesn't allow me to suffer past it, but at the same time it feels like a stretch!
This week we, as a District, had to pull together and say goodbye to one of our family members, hardest thing ever, Elder Benson left two days ago, to go take some time at home and further prepare to represent our Savior. My heart has been so heavy, but as I've turned to the Lord, well, it's been better. Um, that's really put a damper on our week. I want so much to be positive, however in all honesty, it's been one of the toughest things! I am so grateful for his courage, for his example and his pure desire to come closer to Christ. IN fact, that is our sole purpose as missionaries, invite others to Christ. So it's exciting to see this happening in real life!
So, my computer hates me and has frozen after every three words.. So this letter is going to have to be a lot shorter than the rest. I decided to come back now and finish after the temple, because the first computer lab had the worst connection. Anyways, so we just returned from the temple. Wow, I feel SO much better, what a blessing to have a place where I can go and feel peace. Me and my companions are always in the best of spirits after our temple visits, I don't know what I'm going to do out in the field without our weekly temple trip!!
Just one more thought from our Devotional this week.. I'm terrible, but I don't remember their names or want to take time to try and remember. But we were visited by a general authority from the seventy and his wife spoke first. referring to John 15 I think about how the Savior will come to us as we serve, I am so thankful for this time to focus on my relationship with Him and to be able to feel His love every day. It's when I lose sight of this that I get overwhelmed or nervous or feel inadequate. I know that the Lord sustains me through my trials, I know the Savior is real and He I know he loves me.
I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil 4:6).
Thank you for the packages, the words of love and support and encouragement, I love you guys!
Hermana Nelson
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